10:16am January 7, 2015

Reminder

My father died recently. .A lot of what I’ve been doing since then is coming to terms with that loss. I also just moved to another apartment and am only half unpacked. My natural inclination at times like this is to become less social. Meaning even when I want to answer asks, it’s swimming against an overwhelming tide of introversion.

Although whoever sent the latest anon hate is off the mark too. I may be grieving but I’m not any more vulnerable to personal attacks than usual (less so, in fact, because death makes you see what’s really important in life), especially not ones that stupid. But I do find the idea in general of sending anon hate to a grieving person disgusting and despicable, as well as either lacking in the conscience department, or having your conscience buried in bullshit about how it’s okay to bully certain kinds of people. All I have to say to someone like that is I hope by the end of your own life you can face yourself… because death has a way of tearing down your defenses and excuses against your own wrongdoing. My conscience is about as clear as it can get at the moment – it knows I’m trying. Is yours?

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