5:45am March 19, 2015

I can’t believe I wrote that.

It is so hard to write anything, it’s almost painful to my brain.  And I’m completely wiped out and exhausted.  But I feel like writing that was an accomplishment, because I have been trying to write long things ever since I got home and couldn’t. And I couldn’t make them shorter either.  I feel near the point of cognitive collapse.  Brain, please start working soon?  I can tell I’m still delirious because it’s so hard to do simple things with my brain.  Most people don’t know that’s part of delirium, they think of what they see on TV, someone tied down in a hospital bed and babbling nonsense.  I tend toward something called quiet delirium, which is far more dangerous than the more famous kind.

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