1:42am March 21, 2015

Speech is gone, and typing is back.

Thank every god that’s ever existed, and those who haven’t as well.

There are advantages to speech, and I was beginning to hope that maybe I’d go back to how I used to be: Speech coming and going as needed. But I got a long night’s sleep the other night. And I discovered when I woke up that speech was gone except for interjections. And my brain felt so quiet, so painless.

I don’t think I like speech, even with its advantages. I know people who would give their eye teeth for speech. They can have whatever is left of mine. On the ultra rare occasions I can speak (I’m maybe 1-3% verbal), it reminds me of the Little Mermaid, who wanted so bad to walk on land that she was willing to let every step feel like knives. That’s how my brain feels on speech. That’s also how my legs feel sometimes due to hypermobility of joints, but that’s another story.

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