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7:45pm November 29, 2011

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this explains why my ADD is acting up again…

Because ADD is…

Yes that. Except for me it’s not years of therapy, more like years of obsessive writing and rewriting and rewriting and rewriting with the (sometimes) help of other people in the same boat . And the huge help of repeatedly seeing someone articulate things I can’t. (Something I try hard to give back to the world every time I work out how to say something.)

The really fun part is it isn’t enough to work out how to say something once. I’ll usually forget it and have to work it out over and over and over because I have this wonderful tendency to lose skills and have to start out at the beginning or close to it. And usually won’t remember. This can make going through computer files from ten years ago really weird. (“Did I write that?!?”)

At any rate, I never just know how to say something – there’s hundreds if not thousands of failures for every success. And then once I’ve explained something in one situation they will think I could in another situation. Even though my ability to communicate is something like 98% situation dependent. So I’ll be not only expected to be able to do what I could explain, but also be able to explain it (in perfect words) from then on out. And because people see all communication as one skill, if I can explain one thing surely I could explain something else. And surely if I can’t then I’m just not trying, or being “inconsistent” and therefore “fake”, or whatever else they can think up.

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  1. imnotevilimjustwrittenthatway reblogged this from fourloves
  2. physicaltherapistss reblogged this from nicocoer
  3. nicocoer reblogged this from raisel-the-riveter and added:
    Honestly, I’ve had really good and really bad experiences with it. The best CBT experience? I was given the “tools” and...
  4. enchantedloom reblogged this from fourloves and added:
    I’m remembering a social skills group I was made to attend as a teenager. “Oh, you have a problem with phone calls? Make...
  5. raisel-the-riveter reblogged this from sansa-smark and added:
    I don’t think you’re scary! That sounds like a really unpleasant experience, though. I will say I had CBT over the...
  6. fourloves reblogged this from thenameoftheworms and added:
    I love all of this. I’m so tired of how much respect people don’t have for someone just saying how their disability...
  7. chupnaraho reblogged this from blackraincloud and added:
    oh wow i just read the chapters that are online and now i need to go ask my therapist if i have ADD. she is good about...
  8. thenameoftheworms reblogged this from floozycaucus and added:
    I got a lot of “accomidation” in college that consisted of “just form habits!” and “create schedules!” and “write things...
  9. blackraincloud reblogged this from chupnaraho and added:
    ^^^This is so much of my experience. Just…so much. Yes.
  10. floozycaucus reblogged this from blackraincloud and added:
    God, this is so true. CBT for ADHD usually just boils down to “PAY THE FUCK ATTENTION” in my experience, and the whole...