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7:30pm November 30, 2011

Everything hurts. More than usual I mean. And like… even small amounts of urine in my bladder feel like unignorable have-to-go-now pain. (I don’t think I’m infected though. I think it’s the central/neuropathic/whatever-the-fuck pain amplifying small sensations into pain.)

Meanwhile motor planning stuff is equally more fucked up than normal. It’s like… all those borders between things that are hard to cross are now next to impossible if not impossible.

Normally the bathroom doorway gives me the least trouble of any similar boundary in the house. Today I stayed there for ages before… not crossing, but at least yelling for help. Much of that time I was unaware of why I was just standing there. Meanwhile a shoe had called to me and I had been playing with it while my mind went empty.

(The shoe thing happens with objects sometimes but this time I couldn’t put up any resistance to it.)

When stuff like this steps up a notch something is wrong. Guess eventually I’ll know what but sooner would be nicer. :-/

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