7:34pm December 15, 2011

Blurrgh

This doesn’t feel right.

Suspect constipation. (Sorry if that’s TMI but it regularly sends me to the ER or hospital, even after a short number of days – was once hospitalized for nearly a week with a blockage and delirious the whole time, with them really concerned I might die, after only 3 days not going – so it’s a big fucking deal.)

It’s making my entire body feel weird and sluggish and inert whatever it is. Had to get help several times a few minutes ago to turn over in bed. And everything’s just kind of bleaarrrrrgh in my head.

(Which might explain the weird-ass dreams today. Not the nightmare. But the ones where my wheelchair was part of a car, but varied randomly between being part of the driver’s seat, part of something in the back, or strapped with bungee cords to the windshield (all three with me in them and flipping around randomly between spots). And when it was part of the car I mean the wheels were touching the ground. Not as weird as some dreams, but not normal for me these days either.)

Anyway I’m guessing I feel sick because I can’t concentrate worth crap and feel weird physically.