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2:24pm December 16, 2011

Telephones

I’m not sure I ever noticed this before so this is as much for future reference as anything else.

I couldn’t go into the bathroom and I couldn’t get off of the toilet when I was done.

The telephone allowed both of those things to happen.

Nobody called on purpose or did anything to help.

But the call in both cases required movement to respond to. And it broke up the motor silence in some way so I could go in and out. (One phone call each.)

And GAH this LNA is talkative at a time I have no desire to talk (probably no ability to break out of typing this to type anything to her anyway). It’s hard enough to do the crude gestures to get her to do stuff right. (She’s not good at this and she frequently pisses me off with unsolicited rambling on how all disabled cats must die or else we are cruel to them.)

Anyway her calling twice helped at least. Even if I so much don’t want to go through the daily ass-washing that I almost feel like making her leave (but won’t). It’s just too many transitions and feels like hell today. My body doesn’t want to be anything but inert right now.

It’s funny how they go on at great length about caregiver burnout but I’ve never heard anyone but a tiny amount of other disabled people talk about getting burned out by the presence of caregivers.