5:21am January 18, 2012

Now that I’m awake…

…it’s easy to feel the way my body has decided to respond to the exhaustion I mentioned earlier. My legs especially, are kind of stuck in one position. I can obviously use my hands, but my arms are to a lesser degree wanting to stay in one position too.

This isn’t as intense as it can get, but it’s clearly on a continuum with the more extreme stuff that can happen. Where it feels like… I don’t even know how to describe it. Basically at its most intense my body feels really, really strange and a little tight. The strangeness is such that it feels like I can’t get “into” various body parts enough to move them. Instead they just feel weird, and tense, and that strange feeling that seems to say “you won’t be able to move this for awhile”.

A lot of times I just lie there for hours without anything changing. But oddly when my body decides to curl up and quit moving for awhile, my brain starts functioning better in other realms. So I actually get a huge amount of writing done during these immobilized periods. Then I have to do a lot of waiting around until the writing will come out as typing during more mobile periods. It’s not enough to be able to move my hands. Everything has to line up perfectly. And then I can finally write stuff that I put into motion ages ago while not able to move at all.

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