8:10pm November 19, 2010

Not writing, bleh.

I’ve got five or six different things I’m trying to write. But it’s not coming easily at all. Even though many of the topics are important and seem clear enough.

Maybe because of how my body is behaving right now. It’s like… well the pain is one aspect. I’m just getting out of the worst stage after a steroid-based nerve block where it throws out pain up to 8/10 from the medication pressing on the nerve. And the other, maybe it’s pain I’m not processing as such, because my body feels uncomfortable in a way sufficient to distract from the kind of concentration required to write anything important.

Plus my brain, it’s fritzy. It’s not liking language. It wants to communicate the way I communicate with cats and my closest friends, by what I’ve seen called ‘sensing’, mapping the feel of various patterns and resonating with them. Words are hard in comparison.

So I can write about not being able to write. But any topic that requires thought… my body just goes “nope sorry”. (And it’s definitely pain. I can feel it better now.) So I may be in for a lot of just sitting around not able to concentrate on much. Again. No matter how important the writing topics are.