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10:26pm March 2, 2012

Exploration of disability institutions

I love looking at pictures of urban exploration. Except. One thing I don’t understand. Is why it is that going into abandoned mental and DD institutions is so interesting to so many people.

I mean, I can understand an ex-inmate going there. (Or staying the fuck away.) I can imagine disabled people going there to chronicle the history. And I admit to being fascinated by pictures of the interior of a Texas(?) institution made by the same company that made the first mental institution I was put into: the layout was identical, prison-like. But why the average person?

To me, they are places best avoided. I can’t describe what it is that puts me off about them the most. It’s something about the air. The air feels like concentrated evil battering against me. I don’t know if it stays that way after everyone’s left or not, and the physical and emotional violence that creates that atmosphere gone with them. But I can be sure that in general the last thing I’d want to do is go back in and find out. I mean what the hell??

I have to admit to skipping over those pictures and not wanting to reblog them. I don’t like being reminded. I don’t like the false impression some people give that the places that physically look the most creepy or disturbing are the most creepy or disturbing. And there’s doors in my head that I’d rather keep closed unless they’re needed.

I guess most people don’t have those associations. I wonder what associations they do have, that makes such places such a popular target for urban exploration. There’s all kinds of places I’d explore if I was physically able to. But not that. Not unless some good other than the satisfaction of my curiosity would come of it.