8:09pm May 15, 2012

The time warp is starting.

I close my eyes and I’m still at the conference. My brain doesn’t know I’m home. I’m not comfortable yet because I’m not home yet even though I am. The moment I go dormant I get a rush of sounds and sensations and images, completely out of context and haphazard. I can feel my wheelchair being pushed. I can catch pieces of intonation and words from conversations I didn’t even notice at the time.

But the only true way out of this is through. It’s just so painful and disorienting that I typically delay a lot. Usually after it is over things are suddenly super quiet. And I have usually got drool all over my face. Sometimes I start twitching. I often temporarily lose memory of the events in question.

But I have to send this because it’s all trying to happen while I type and that’s not good.

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