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3:31am June 14, 2012
feliscorvus: youneedacat: Holy crap. I looked at that photo and I thought something on the lines of “I don’t know what that is, but it looks a hell of a lot like I see things.” Not that this should be surprising, given that according to your S.O. we “share a brain”, but still. That’s incredibly familiar-looking, and not because I’ve seen California light rail stations before, even though I have. I often wish I could manipulate images that well. Yeah other than this sort of thing, the closest I’ve seen to my normal visual processing has been certain HDR images. Only those don’t go quite far *enough* to account for everything.  There’s also a point I reach quite easily though. Where it’s like, the sheer amount of details in everything is too much visually. And things feel like they’re shaking. I mean not literally, but as if the entire fabric of visual reality is so strained that it’s shaking under the weight of the details and about to fall apart. And then it does fall apart and if I’m not lucky I end up even more functionally blind than I already am. I do better at avoiding that with tinted lenses but it still happens a lot. Yep that happens to me too, albeit more easily in overload states or when I’m really tired. The weird thing is that sometimes I seem to function *better* after the falling-apart thing happens, at least in the sense of being able to navigate from point A to point B. I mean as long as nobody expects me to do something like, say, talk. It’s like even when all the representational layers are gone I still have this pattern-detection thing I can do. I don’t know if you’ve tried tinted lenses or not. I find I like them for some situations or tasks, and not others. I’ve found good luck with the medium green tint at Zenni Optical. I bet you could try it by ordering one of their cheapest glasses in each tint, spreading it out over a period of months if you don’t want to spend a lot of money. That way you could get an idea what, if anything would work. I find some tints make things better than others, and some make things utterly atrocious. (I once switched glasses with a guy who had the same prescription but different tint, and my eyes instantly hurt and a garbage can folded in half.) Anyway, that’s the closest I’ve seen an image look to how I often see things even when the world hasn’t shattered on me. I would love to try different tinted lenses, but I need to get my eyes checked again because my RX is out of date, and I’m awful about making appointments for stuff like that. But once I do I will totally get some from Zenni. I’ve tried the light green and that didn’t do much for me except make everything look a bit..sickly, but the medium green would probably have a completely different effect. I do have a *yellow* pair that, oddly enough, helps in some types of lighting but I really want some darker ones too. In any event I’ll let you know what happens when I do try different colors. And now I am falling asleep so will post this and go to bed. The lighter tints are more there to make the glasses look good than to actually do anything. If I were you I’d try the medium ones. When I have the money to do so, I get a medium tint for most occasions and a dark tint of the same color for intense intense sunlight and stuff. I find the dark ones make things too dim sometimes otherwise. Right now I just have medium though. And yes I often function better in the scrambled mode too. I think it represents the dropping of a perceptual state that is way too costly to maintain, so removing it removes a lot of mind strain.

feliscorvus:

youneedacat:

Holy crap.

I looked at that photo and I thought something on the lines of “I don’t know what that is, but it looks a hell of a lot like I see things.” Not that this should be surprising, given that according to your S.O. we “share a brain”, but still. That’s incredibly familiar-looking, and not because I’ve seen California light rail stations before, even though I have. I often wish I could manipulate images that well.

Yeah other than this sort of thing, the closest I’ve seen to my normal visual processing has been certain HDR images. Only those don’t go quite far *enough* to account for everything. 

There’s also a point I reach quite easily though. Where it’s like, the sheer amount of details in everything is too much visually. And things feel like they’re shaking. I mean not literally, but as if the entire fabric of visual reality is so strained that it’s shaking under the weight of the details and about to fall apart. And then it does fall apart and if I’m not lucky I end up even more functionally blind than I already am. I do better at avoiding that with tinted lenses but it still happens a lot.

Yep that happens to me too, albeit more easily in overload states or when I’m really tired. The weird thing is that sometimes I seem to function *better* after the falling-apart thing happens, at least in the sense of being able to navigate from point A to point B. I mean as long as nobody expects me to do something like, say, talk. It’s like even when all the representational layers are gone I still have this pattern-detection thing I can do.

I don’t know if you’ve tried tinted lenses or not. I find I like them for some situations or tasks, and not others. I’ve found good luck with the medium green tint at Zenni Optical. I bet you could try it by ordering one of their cheapest glasses in each tint, spreading it out over a period of months if you don’t want to spend a lot of money. That way you could get an idea what, if anything would work. I find some tints make things better than others, and some make things utterly atrocious. (I once switched glasses with a guy who had the same prescription but different tint, and my eyes instantly hurt and a garbage can folded in half.)

Anyway, that’s the closest I’ve seen an image look to how I often see things even when the world hasn’t shattered on me.

I would love to try different tinted lenses, but I need to get my eyes checked again because my RX is out of date, and I’m awful about making appointments for stuff like that. But once I do I will totally get some from Zenni. I’ve tried the light green and that didn’t do much for me except make everything look a bit..sickly, but the medium green would probably have a completely different effect. I do have a *yellow* pair that, oddly enough, helps in some types of lighting but I really want some darker ones too. In any event I’ll let you know what happens when I do try different colors. And now I am falling asleep so will post this and go to bed.

The lighter tints are more there to make the glasses look good than to actually do anything. If I were you I’d try the medium ones. When I have the money to do so, I get a medium tint for most occasions and a dark tint of the same color for intense intense sunlight and stuff. I find the dark ones make things too dim sometimes otherwise. Right now I just have medium though.

And yes I often function better in the scrambled mode too. I think it represents the dropping of a perceptual state that is way too costly to maintain, so removing it removes a lot of mind strain.