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6:26pm October 4, 2012

Yes I’m still in the hospital.

They cured the pneumonia pretty quickly, if horribly. It was hell.

But the trouble has been the nausea and lack of appetite. They finally diagnosed me with gastroparesis, which means my stomach doesn’t empty quickly due to probably autonomic problems inherited from my mom. So I’m basically living on the equivalent of Ensure, and do really badly whenever they introduce “real food”. But I should be getting out of here soon. I hope. Because I’m sick of this place.

I’ve had this for years and years. It has just gotten worse. I have close to zero interest in food. But drinking these liquid nutrition shake things now and then seems to work really well, unlike normal food. I’m getting nutrients without having to put much actual material into my body at once. But every time I try to eat real food it makes me feel like shit the rest of the day. So I’ve been here awhile trying to adjust meds and food and etc. I lost a ridiculous amount of weight by the time they weighed me (and no, this is absolutely not a good thing, it means I was barely eating).

I just hope I get out of here soon. (In a good way where I don’t bounce back in.)