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5:12am March 28, 2013
I am using some of my restricted time to access tumblr since the hospital now has a stupid policy of restricting access to personal blogging sites. Thus disconnecting me from most people I know online. I can get email but cannot check tumblr much. The hospital wants to admit me for this latest lung infection. I feel horrible and the first antibiotics didn’t work so they are keeping me for more antibiotics. They also said they may be able to place a j tube, a kind of feeding tube, while I am here. Possibly. That might help stop the aspirations that are causing the infections and allow me to get food that bypasses my stomach. The j tube goes beneath the stomach and into the small intestines. They said they might talk to me about different types and the pros and cons and stuff. I’m mostly relieved someone is finally hustling about this because I knew if we waited until everything was done, then I would be in trouble. Lungs hurt. Back hurts. Everything hurts. I don’t know what else to say. I feel awful. I’m tired tired tired which is why my DPA made me come. The gurney hurts my butt and I want a real bed. But I don’t like their beds either. They make hospital beds too complicated here. I like my home one that lets me curl up sideways against the back, without doing anything weird. I have my stuffed tiger here because I thought they might admit me and I wanted someone almost alive with me. And she is. She has blood on her now. We got most of it off but some of it is going to stain. So she’s got battle wounds now I guess. Now I’m going to accept using ten minutes of the sixty I’m allowed on tumblr, and will try to post this. I have just discovered, using that, that some of my posts were getting through, I just wasn’t being allowed to see them. WTF is the point of restricting blogging sites in general. Keeps patients way too isolated. Scared about staying here with these restrictions in place.

I am using some of my restricted time to access tumblr since the hospital now has a stupid policy of restricting access to personal blogging sites. Thus disconnecting me from most people I know online. I can get email but cannot check tumblr much.

The hospital wants to admit me for this latest lung infection. I feel horrible and the first antibiotics didn’t work so they are keeping me for more antibiotics. They also said they may be able to place a j tube, a kind of feeding tube, while I am here. Possibly. That might help stop the aspirations that are causing the infections and allow me to get food that bypasses my stomach. The j tube goes beneath the stomach and into the small intestines. They said they might talk to me about different types and the pros and cons and stuff. I’m mostly relieved someone is finally hustling about this because I knew if we waited until everything was done, then I would be in trouble.

Lungs hurt. Back hurts. Everything hurts.

I don’t know what else to say. I feel awful. I’m tired tired tired which is why my DPA made me come. The gurney hurts my butt and I want a real bed. But I don’t like their beds either. They make hospital beds too complicated here. I like my home one that lets me curl up sideways against the back, without doing anything weird.

I have my stuffed tiger here because I thought they might admit me and I wanted someone almost alive with me. And she is. She has blood on her now. We got most of it off but some of it is going to stain. So she’s got battle wounds now I guess.

Now I’m going to accept using ten minutes of the sixty I’m allowed on tumblr, and will try to post this. I have just discovered, using that, that some of my posts were getting through, I just wasn’t being allowed to see them. WTF is the point of restricting blogging sites in general. Keeps patients way too isolated. Scared about staying here with these restrictions in place.

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