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3:13am April 17, 2013
This is an eight. Pretty much dead center not close to a nine not close to a seven. It gives me a tiny bit of satisfaction that at least something good is resulting from all this pain — being able to take pictures to document what it looks like on me, that is. That makes something unbearable a tiny bit more bearable. Because otherwise this is awful and seems pointless and WTF. I worry when I’m in this much pain that something must be wrong with the tube, but my doctor said there probably isn’t anything wrong. I hope he’s right. The other thing that makes the pain worth it, is that the tube exists in the first place. That makes this a little more tolerable too. Because I need the tube, and the tube is important, and that’s worth a lot of pain because its keeping me alive and that’s a good thing. I just hope I start recovering from this soon because its utterly horrible. I suspect there’s some combination of the incision pain and the rubbing of the tube on the incision and gas pain and bloating and stuff all combining to be utterly and totally horrible.

This is an eight. Pretty much dead center not close to a nine not close to a seven.

It gives me a tiny bit of satisfaction that at least something good is resulting from all this pain — being able to take pictures to document what it looks like on me, that is. That makes something unbearable a tiny bit more bearable. Because otherwise this is awful and seems pointless and WTF.

I worry when I’m in this much pain that something must be wrong with the tube, but my doctor said there probably isn’t anything wrong. I hope he’s right. The other thing that makes the pain worth it, is that the tube exists in the first place. That makes this a little more tolerable too. Because I need the tube, and the tube is important, and that’s worth a lot of pain because its keeping me alive and that’s a good thing.

I just hope I start recovering from this soon because its utterly horrible. I suspect there’s some combination of the incision pain and the rubbing of the tube on the incision and gas pain and bloating and stuff all combining to be utterly and totally horrible.

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