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7:20pm May 5, 2013

I still have nightmares about school.

I had a nightmare today that I was trying to attend college, with my body the way it presently is. I get those fairly often. Where I don’t have the energy to attend class, or if I do attend class, I am too wiped out to know what’s going on, or collapse, or etc.

I don’t know why I have so many dreams about school. And it’s always about what if I attended some sort of school I’ve already attended, whether the exact school is the same or not, but with my body as it is now. I don’t get why I have that many dreams about that scenario but it is getting old.

My attempt at university was a lot like that. Untreated, undiagnosed chronic pain that everyone was treating like a mental health issue, because if a normal person behaves exactly like a person in pain, everyone gets what is happening, but if a crazy person behaves exactly like a person in pain, well that’s what you get for going off your meds. I’m still angry about the way people taught me that the pain didn’t exist, and then after that, that the pain was a spiritual problem that would be fixed if I resolved my ~kundalini issues~, gotta love California.