5:18pm July 26, 2013

Constant vigilance!

Okay it’s dangerous to me to doze off without a drainage bag attached.

I was a little tired, and was browsing tumblr.

Then very suddenly, with apparently no time passing (which means I fell into a light sleep)…

OH SHIT WTF LUNGS WHERE ARE YOU WHERE IS AIR WHERE IS AIR???

Turns out I just barely, barely escaped aspiration. Something got as far as the entrance to my lungs and then got coughed out fast enough I think no serious damage was done.

But it’s a bit of a wake-up call. No pun intended.

I don’t know how I’m going to get through all the mess of putting on and taking off a drainage bag every time I nap. But I’d damn well better figure it out.

I need to be wearing my bipap too. I keep getting way too casual about sleep apnea. Neither central not obstructive apnea are things to screw around with, and I have both.

Turns out by the way that my sleep study was mostly okay. Which doesn’t explain how my breathing feels after I sleep, or all the nightmares about suffocating and drowning, which are usually an indicator I’m having breathing problems. IDK.

I do know that if I allow myself to aspirate, I’ll feel really damn stupid.

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