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4:38am July 30, 2013

➸ Making Room for Other Roots: some personal notes on that video before this post. I look around me....

soilrockslove:

some personal notes on that video before this post. I look around me. I always do. I’ve been told to not do that, to look ahead and act like you “know where you are going and have a purpose". But I can’t. Not without more energy than I even have some days.

And I don’t care anymore, I’m not going…

I already attract too much police attention when I leave the house. Ever since I was thirteen I’ve been picked up by the cops just for existing outside. 90% of the time I wasn’t doing anything. And they treated me really rough. It’s because I’m cognitively disabled.

I’m white. And I’ve long thought that I wouldn’t have survived to this age if I weren’t. Or if I hadn’t been shot, I’d be in jail. And that’s exactly what happens to cognitively disabled people of color. Even many cognitively disabled white people, but it’s far worse for people of color. I’ve been abused by cops, but never shot at. And that makes me very aware what must, and does, happen to cognitively disabled and mentally ill people of color. Or deaf people, who get shot for not responding to instructions. I couldn’t always respond to instructions either. And it terrifies me the way people are treated.