9:01pm August 17, 2013

Okay this is for my mental health.

Except for a couple of specific topics (like the fiasco at the sociology course and keep us cool), I am going to try and hold off on reblogging most serious political stuff for a little while. Along with my mom visiting soon I’m not in the mood.

I’m finding that that stuff is contributing to making my brain all buzzy and uncomfortable. And taking me away from who I am in a really damaging way. But every time I tried to veer away and even check a tag other than highly serious and heavily word-based tags, I’d feel compelled to go to the political or chronic illness tags. And when it becomes a compulsion, rather than something you do for a good reason, something is wrong.

I already feel better just removing half the tags I track and trying to focus only on certain types of post. The turning point was finally being able to focus on that place of silent clarity last night. Outside of stories. Because the compulsions here must have stories at their root. I can’t tell you how good it felt to step outside that and remember I still exist.

Also… You know how I talked about how one part of me seems air and fire and the other part seems earth and water? And the air and fire part seems to get more notice on the internet?

Well I’ve created a secondary tumblr where I reblog the more earth and water based posts. I may also make original posts there sometimes I have not decided. Anyway here it is:

http://redwoodsoil.tumblr.com/

Obviously I can’t follow people with that blog, only with this one. So if I follow someone after they follow that blog, that’s why. 

My head is really fuzzy tonight.  Maybe because I slept all day. But it’d be a thousand times worse if I kept reblogging that stuff.

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