12:56pm September 11, 2013

Sick nightmares

I keep having weird nightmares where I feel terribly sick and weird things happen and everything I try makes it worse… And then I wake up feeling terribly sick.

Usually it’s nausea because gastroparesis. This morning it was combined nausea and kidney pain from holding urine too long.  I had this epic feeding tube nightmare the other day in which terrible things were happening to my tube and I was floating down all these rivers, trying to find help. I never did.  In fact at the end of the dream I was trapped in the middle of nowhere in China, fearing I would die before I could find medical help. But I woke up and the problem was just I needed to squeeze the accordion on my drainage bag.  As soon as it did it sucked everything out of my stomach pretty fast. Problem solved.
But this morning I really thought I’d throw up, I tried everything, turned out I needed to take a crap.  And the kidney pain went away a little while after I urinated and put a bunch of water in my j tube.  Obviously if it stuck around I would have gotten help. But I often get kidney pain if I get that combination of slight dehydration and not urinating for too long. So I didn’t automatically run to the doctor over nothing. I sure hope it’s nothing as usual… I really need a few months where I don’t go on antibiotics. 

But I’m now sore in my upper right back… Probably the old post-cholecystectomy syndrome but knowing that doesn’t make it hurt less.

I only got three hours of sleep last night, and one more this morning off the bipap. Those three hours were interrupted twice by that thing with the awful dreams and waking up feeling sick. I felt so awful I took my temperature when I woke up but it was its normal slightly low self… 96.8.

Now I’m feeling less than great but better than horrible. Ragged and in pain and brain fritzy.

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