7:31pm October 21, 2013

I got an A on my essay!

Totally unexpected. I was expecting a B at best. But apparently other students are more lenient graders than I am. I would’ve graded it down for a lot of things. But they graded me too high almost, and then put the things I would’ve down-graded it for in the comments rather than the number grade. t was weird. I hope I wasn’t grading everyone else too harshly! (I graded about seven people. Fortunately a grade is taken as the average of what several people grade you as, so if I was too harsh it will balance out.)

I also just caught up on my lectures. It's so hard. Lectures make me fall asleep, it doesn’t matter if I’m excited or not. And my mind always wanders. Some of these I literally had to play the same five seconds upwards of fifteen times because I’d space out at the exact same time on each one. My quiz grades are excellent though, somehow. Of course in the case of one of my classes, I’d already read all the books the class is based on, so I do have an advantage there. But I’m having trouble retaining the science-y details and stuff. Like I understand the basic idea, but expect me to remember the exact name of an exact phenomenon and it goes over my head half the time.

It’s weird…

Sometimes things are really really hard for me, harder than for most people who are doing them, in terms of the absolute amount of effort required. And yet the result is sometimes that I actually do better than them at it, even if it’s easier for them. And that’s a riddle I’ve never understood.

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