5:38pm November 29, 2013

Brain problem

So I’ve been awake all night because I was chewing food and spitting it out yesterday, but apparently even chewing it and spitting it out makes me feel really sick sometimes, and I felt too sick all night to sleep.

And now.

Every time I close my eyes and drift off.

I’ll start thinking about something.

Say, the content of a tumblr post I was just reading.

And I get a spatial (but not quite visual) part of my brain creates shapes.

And the shapes start blending and melding together.

But not quite.

And the shapes shift.

And no matter what the original shapes were, they always shift into the same shape.

And then that shape shifts around in all these ways, and creates the exact same shape again.

And then it repeats and repeats and things never quite fit and it feels aggravating and frustrating.

And it’s different shapes sometimes like sometimes it’s dog clothes for each body part but somehow they shift into these self-similar repeating things.

And I think that may be some kind of pre-seizure-type thing, because I often get weird “repeating things” during something like that.

But this is like some strange “repeating” thing where the shapes keep repeating into each other?  Or not.  Can’t tell if the repeating is seizurish or not.  Tired and painful but can’t be sure.

[Since I wrote this I fell asleep and even though I’m still seriously sleep-deprived I think that hellish repeating-thing thing is over?  I hope.  But still posting it so I remember it happened.]

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