6:47am December 15, 2013

Oh also regarding exotropia.

At the moment when I talk about being able to force my eyes to coordinate, I mean coordinate with the help of the strongest prism lenses my eye doc is willing to give me (I think it’s 4, he says at my worst I need way more but this is the best he can do). I don’t mean actually coordinate without corrective glasses. I used to sometimes be able to do that but it’s been awhile. If my glasses are off, like now, I’m either shutting one eye, or my brain is ignoring that eye (sometimes to the point I can’t see double even when I try, sometimes if I really focus I can see double – my brain hasn’t permanently shut out one eye, but it can do something lesser but similar over short periods).

For some reason tinted lenses used to make me able to coordinate my eyes better, not sure why. It makes no sense to me. So did an illicit drug, but I actually felt it tensing my facial muscles so that explains what I couldn’t explain before, things fit together after the fact. But my problems were much more minor before the hard core neuromuscular clusterfuck set in.

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