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4:30am December 30, 2013

I haven’t felt great today.

I slept all night last night, 13 hours.

Then I slept all afternoon.

Then I slept tonight until 3 in the morning.

I couldn’t stay awake. And I’m still tired. I wish I could sleep more. Maybe I will.

I’m not coughing up a lot, but when I do it’s weird colors.

And my lungs feel weird in ways I can’t explain. I’ve got a bipap going with oxygen piped in but breathing still feels wrong. Not wrong enough to need help, just really uncomfortable.

I can’t pinpoint why I feel run down, but I feel run down. It’s not any one thing, I just feel awful.

I guess lung infections do that, but I hadn’t had one since May, I almost forgot what it feels like. I have no energy. My lungs feel really off. I can’t feel what’s inside them, but if feel something. And everywhere in my body feels deprived of energy. Probably why I can’t stay awake long today.

But hopefully the dead cabbage meds will kill this off. They’d better. I’m allowing them into my body for a reason.