4:46am December 30, 2013

Oh also, this afternoon…

This afternoon I felt like I wasn’t delirious yet, but like the door to that other world was opened, and it really freaked me out. I also felt that whole gravitational pull towards it that happens at that point.

I hope that’s gone away.

My friend was trying to get me to give details that might help, but all I could say was a certain taste in my mouth and an orangish yellow color and other things that make no sense except associatively. I’d gone to her place because I felt like I was on the verge of a nightmare even though I was awake, then i could do nothing but sleep over there. She gave me a rock she holds onto to stop nightmares. I need to make one of those.

This doesn’t necessarily say how bad the infection is. Delirium creates more inroads to delirium every time it happens, so it predisposes your brain to becoming delirious again under less extreme circumstances.

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