12:58pm April 2, 2014

Also it’s becoming clear I’ve had adrenal insufficiency much longer than I thought.

As my friend said, my health crash six years ago isn’t when it started.  It’s when it became a crisis.

I just climbed four flights of steps again today.  I still remember the last time I was able to do anything like that.  And my legs gave out on the way up, that time.  It was 2004 or 2005, years before my health crash.  And it was the same day that my muscles gave out in the ocean and I almost drowned.  A staff person pulled me out of the water and I was weak and shaky, much how I felt last night after I got the news about my mother.

I’m starting to wonder if this was the condition, or one of them, that was misdiagnosed for awhile as CFS, for lack of anything better to call it.  Because the steroids are making things go away that have been here a long time.  Things I didn’t think could go away.  Things I barely remember ever not existing, at least in my adult life.

I imagine things like this can have a slow onset, and that may be what I was experiencing all that time.

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