3:04am May 7, 2014

If I fall asleep now it will be amazing and wonderful and beautiful.

Because I need sleep because nerve pain is awful. And because a lot of my night meds like Benadryl are combined together right now this time of night and that’s not a bad thing when sleep-deprived and in pain.

So I hope for some rest, maybe even all night long.

And I did fall asleep.

And I woke up.

And the nerve pain is so much less it’s amazing.

I’ve still got some, but it’s nowhere near as bad.

For some reason, sleep deprivation and stress both have a severe effect on nerve pain for me. And especially, stress related to language use seems to do it to me, and nerve pain seems to spur me on to get stuck in language in an attempt to numb myself, so that can turn into a vicious cycle.

There’s only a couple parts of me that still hurt a lot, and those are because I slept a long time with stuff pressed up against them – one of my arms, and my face because of my bipap mask. But that still doesn’t hurt anywhere near as much as my whole body did yesterday.

Let’s hope it stays this way. I hate nerve pain. (Or central pain, or whatever-TF it is.)