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10:58am May 13, 2014

Wow that was a close call.

Started feeling extremely lousy and nauseated, to the point where even with all my emetophobia-induced coping skills I wasn’t sure I’d be able to hold down my stomach fluid.  We drained out my g-tube and got about 3 cups of fluid out.  No wonder.

It still never fails to surprise me how much stomach fluid I can drain out of my g-tube sometimes.  Or how whenever I’m severely nauseated, there’s always a reason, either lots of fluid, lots of gas, or both.  

I feel so much better now, and I didn’t even have to throw up to get to feeling better.  But I almost did, even with Phenergan, Benadryl, and Zofran in rapid succession.

I really wish Anne had a g-tube or a GJ-tube.  I know there’s no medical reason for it, but I always think of her inability to belch and how painful and bloated she gets, and how easy that is to control when you can just open up a valve and get rid of all the excess liquid and gas.  It also could be another tool for emetophobes who want an alternative to throwing up – it’s not foolproof (some nausea isn’t based on how much is in your stomach), but when nausea is at all connected to how full your stomach is, then it makes a huge difference to be able to empty your stomach without puking.

(Not tagging with emetophobia, even though it’s relevant, because I don’t want discussion of vomit and bile ending up in a tag full of people terrified of such things.)

Now I’m just wiped out and exhausted.  But that’s so much better than being nauseated and irritable.  I didn’t understand why I was so irritable, I kept feeling like I was being pulled off-center, and just felt wrong.  But burping my g-tube made all the difference.