10:18pm May 17, 2014

➸ There's a difference in philosophy, sometimes.

patternsmaybe:

youneedacat:

I apologize in advance for how long this is. I wouldn’t be able to read it, myself. I often can’t read what I can write. But I can’t make things concise, it’s part of my language problems. So anyway…

I’m going to use mental age as an example.

DD people, regardless of diagnosis or IQ, are…

I agree with you, but I’m also finding your recent posts alarming.

I don’t know words for it but you seem… stuck somewhere? Stuck in terror and rage and words. Imprecise. Not quite what I mean. But approximate.

I’m worried about you. Am I reading this right? Can I help you?

You’re reading this right.

That’s why I’ve said, things are going wrong, things are not under my control, they’re not… working, I feel sideways.  And I think a lot of it is due to having a cold combined with being on a very high dose of steroids, it mangles my brain in really unpleasant ways, and I can feel that it’s wrong but I can’t escape it.  I feel like I’m sideways and at an angle to reality and I can’t get out.

I don’t know what you can do to help.  Right now I’m trying to concentrate a lot on crocheting and sewing.  It’s the only thing that’s keeping me halfway in reality, and especially in sensory reality rather than idea reality.  I need more sensory reality.  I need less jangly shit bouncing around my brain driving me crazy.

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