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2:07pm May 25, 2014

Have you ever…? (one of many, I keep writing these)

Do you know what it’s like to have lived in the depths, where nothing can touch you and nothing makes sense?  Have you ever been unable to reach out your hand to touch something of interest, because the connections have all gotten scrambled in between?  Have you lived before ‘interest’ was a possibility, where there’s no way for your mind to move towards something, or away, simply drifting like a leaf on the wind?  Have you lived in a world that was merely swirls of everything around you, nothing standing out as having meaning?  Have you watched your body run around the room, slamming into walls, and been powerless to do anything but make weird yelping noises when you try to call for help?  Have you ever done that until you literally collapsed from exhaustion?  Have you been unable to find your body at all, whether it was moving or still, and needed someone’s rhythmic touch to bring you back to yourself?  Have you ever woken up and spent the first three hours of the day screaming yourself hoarse, because you couldn’t get any words out but the things you needed to say were important?