7:26pm May 29, 2014

So I’m taking THREE classes at once right now.

Which is more than I’ve ever even tried before.

And I’m keeping up with all of them. And I don’t mean I’m doing them at the last minute every week with the deadline hanging over my head. I mean I’m actually just keeping up with them at random points during the week when I have the energy.

And so far I’m averaging a B+ in one and an A- in the other two.

This is bizarre.

I’m sure the dexamethasone has something to do with this, because the last class I took I was taking one class and it was taking all of my energy just to keep up.

And some of the classes I’m taking right now have quite difficult material, too. My eyes started crossing during one of the neurology lectures about the difference between a map and a meter, although I think I finally got it.

I think this is also showing that the more I use my brain, the more it works. Which is what they told me would happen with recovering from delirium, but I think my brain is actually going well beyond its baseline even before the delirium. Which might protect me from further delirium, I hope.

But doing these three classes is easier than doing the last one class I did, or the two before that.

Sort of like doing 40 jumping jacks is easier than doing ordinary stuff around the house used to be.

It’s hard to gauge what is enough and what is too much. And I know that I can slide over those lines too easily. And I also know that having my brain working in all these new ways, leaves it vulnerable in certain ways that I have to be very careful about. Because however well I’m doing, there are downsides to it.

And I think the amount of pain I’ve been in is part of the downsides. I’ve been in a lot of pain lately. A lot. I’d gotten it pretty well-controlled, but it’s not that well-controlled anymore. It’s both joint pain and neuropathic pain.

I’m hoping physical therapy will help with some of the pain though.

But seriously excited that I can do this many classes at once and not even feel like I’m missing out on any of them.