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8:53pm July 17, 2014
astrangemishap asked: (1)Sorry for messaging you so much, but some of the things you write make me mad because of your mistreatment but I also like it because you seem like you like helping people and you stick up for self diagnosed people and I can kind of relate to you.

2) I have problems with expressive language especially when spoken, so trying to explain stuff sucks when I know something but am unable to explain it. I can’t relate to your receptive problems but I can relate to your problems w/ conveying thouht

(3) I can also relate to not being noticed as autistic, which I’m pretty sure I am, but being noticed as different. Some thought I was on pot because of how calm I am, which is probably due to flat affect and alexithymia. I also rarely talk.

(4) So, er, I really thank you for this blog. It has helped me understand some things about myself. Sorry for the longness. I tend to write too much when it comes to things like this. Also, trees are cool and so are bodies of water.

Thank you!  I am glad you have found plenty to relate to in stuff I have written, and also that there are things you can’t relate to.  (Because it’s rare to find someone where you can relate to everything.  I have a friend who’s as close to a mind-twin as you can get and we still have important differences between us.)  

I hope being thought to be on pot hasn’t led to too many offers of pot (unless you like pot, I guess)!  I used to have people think I was on drugs, so I got offered drugs a lot, and sometimes I took them.  Pot did really gnarly things to my brain – wild hallucinations, anxiety, and total sensory disintegration.  The first two are a common side-effect that most people aren’t aware of because of its ‘mellow’ reputation (people blame it on being 'laced’ or on there being something 'wrong with the person’s mindset’, but it’s actually just the effect THC has on some people), and the third I believe to be an autistic thing for some people.  Like my visual and tactile perception got so bad I would get disoriented and drop the pipe, which infuriates potheads to no end.

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  1. witchyautisticweirdo said: YES, I’ve told people I hallucinated when I was high and I got told it was probably laced. No, it wasn’t. I hate when people act like pot can only have positive effects. I experienced “ego death” after smoking it and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.
  2. asha-baejoy said: ah thats interesting bc my brother and friend who are both autistic both smoke a lot of weed and they both say it makes them imagine things that arent technically hallucinations, kind of just like imagining really vivid and weird ideas.
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