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7:42pm July 24, 2014
Anonymous asked: The Wikipedia page says you have schizophrenia and psychotic disorder. Is this true?

catharticcruella:

withasmoothroundstone:

The Wikipedia page says I was diagnosed with them.  That’s true.  I don’t have them, though, any more than I have bipolar, which is also mentioned.  The people who wrote that on the Wikipedia page are counting on people misreading it in exactly the way you just did.  I went through a lot of different diagnoses and misdiagnoses over the years, which is pretty standard if you’re in the psych system for awhile and you have any problem that’s even marginally complicated.  I’ve had physical misdiagnoses as well, but nobody dwells on those because it’s not as sensationalistic to say that they thought I broke something but I actually sprained it.

I have bipolar and psychotic disorders, and I’m also autistic, Anonymous. Several diagnoses are a thing.

Yes, that too.  And if I thought the diagnoses were at all accurate, I would definitely say so.  (I think the diagnosis of dissociative disorder NOS was accurate, and the PTSD diagnosis, as far as psychiatric diagnoses go.  Other diagnoses, less accurate.)  I’m not the sort of person who would be ashamed of being psychotic.  But the closest I’ve ever truly experienced to psychosis is delirium.  And beyond that, I tried really hard, really hard, to escape reality, for a long time, and I mean tried my damndest for years, and I couldn’t, so I think that my brain doesn’t lend itself to breaks with reality very easily, except when severely physically ill.  If it did, it wouldn’t be a shameful thing, though.  It just… doesn’t.