as small as a world and as large as alone, I’ve been told that one of my weird talents is my...

10:03pm August 12, 2014

I’ve been told that one of my weird talents is my ability to put together clothes that shouldn’t go together, and make them work. This may be one of those times.

I went back to Goodwill, this time looking for dad shirts in solid colors, or as close to solid as I could get them. The point was to have shirts I could wear with patterned skirts. So I found this light blue button-down shirt in the men’s department. I combined it with a brown skirt with light blue checks, and a border that has sort of flower-shaped things. And suspenders, of course. And the necklace I’ve been wearing lately, with the redwoods in it. At Goodwill I also found brown lace tights, and I never wear tights but they seemed like they’d work perfect with this so I wore them. And then I wore the super-comfortable brown suede boots I got at Goodwill last time.

I am also happy whenever I can come up with an outfit that combines elements of what other people would consider more than one ‘gender presentation’, because I really don’t like when people consider the aesthetics of the clothing I wear a “gender presentation” instead of just “clothes I like”. So when I can mix elements of “masculine” and “feminine” it makes me happy because I’m not doing what they expect.

And yes those are nasty bruises on my arms, from infiltrated and blown IVs many times over at the hospital. I was two inches from needing a PICC line by the time I left. And I am going to get down and beg on bended knee for my doctor to allow me to have a port, if I have to. Also the thing hanging off one of my suspenders is a g-tube drainage bag, because where else can I put it?