10:04pm August 17, 2014

IMPORTANT PSA

Nobody has attacked me.

Nobody is bullying me.

I am having a bad day, I am sick, and I am triggered by past episodes of bullying.

The person who triggered me has no idea that they have triggered me.

The person who triggered me is not at fault.

The person who triggered me was probably not even thinking about me.

Please do not be mean to anyone on my behalf.

Please do not attack anyone on my behalf.

Please do not “defend” me unless for some reason you see something that needs defending, and then please don’t do it unless you’re at least somewhat nice about it, because anything you say will be blamed on me.  That’s how it works.

Long story short, I’m having a bad day, I read something out of the corner of my eye that set off every possible trigger I didn’t want today, and I am freaking out.  I will be fine eventually.  I have a chest infection, I’m getting over meningitis, my father is still terminally ill, and it was already a stressful day.  I’m under stress.  I'm not being attacked.  Please don’t attack anyone that you think must have attacked me.

Most of this is me reacting to things that happened a long, long time ago.

Things will be better once the lorazepam kicks in and my brain calms down a bit.

But seriously I’m triggered and that’s most of the actual problem, most of the problem is not external to me.  Or at least, most of the current actual problem is not external to me.

Thank you for your support though.  Just know that I’m not under attack, that I know of.

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