11:27pm September 7, 2014

When the sun shines through someone as if they are transparent, things to do, things not to do.

It can happen to me it can happen to you. We become so transparent the sun shines through, and people see the light, but they don’t know where it comes from. And they see a light glowing through our temporary transparency, and they think the light comes from you, or that it comes from me. They can’t see the sun shining brilliantly, and they look to us for that light.

And this causes us problems in too many ways to count. We don’t want them to see us as the source of something we had nothing to do with at all. And yet the call can be seductive, to believe we are capable of generating this brilliant sun inside us. And that’s where everything goes wrong.

Either we have a lot of followers we didn’t ask for, didn’t want, and don’t know how to handle. Or we believe on some level we deserve to be followed, because after all the light came from us, didn’t it? But the light came from the sun. And there’s nothing that will make us opaque to the sunlight more than an ego trip. So we become opaque but people still follow us. And we try to generate our own light but it’s only a feeble imitation, a smudge around us.

People who know the difference will stay far away. People who don’t just stay. And the ones who stay get hurt. And that includes each and every one of us who claims the sunlight as our own and tries to generate false light. Because we hurt ourselves while we’re hurting everyone else.

If you want to have even a chance of being transparent to the sun, even for a moment, you need humility. You need to know who you are, and who you aren’t, inside out. You need to dismantle all the parts of you that block out the sun.

And you have to understand, that transparency is not yours, it is not mine, it is not anyone’s. It’s something that can happen to everyone. It can happen in a flash, for a moment. It can happen over time for days. I don’t even know the time limit, but I suspect there isn’t one, it all depends on the person and the circumstances.

But the most important thing to remember is that the sun is not a quality of a person. You can’t go looking for sun people, the people you find will mostly be liars anyway. They get very adept at creating a massive glow around them that has nothing to do with the sun at all. And they will hurt you if you’re not careful to stay away.

When a person is transparent to the sun, it looks different. But even when it’s real, you don’t want to follow them. They’re someone just like you, having a transparent moment. Treasure it, but don’t worship the person or you’ll lose your way, and maybe cause them to lose theirs.

As you may know, I’ve had my transparent moments. I treasure them more than I treasure anything. But people turn around and praise the parts of me that keep me from becoming transparent in the first place. And they are so eager to follow me into folly that way. And I know no way to warn them, other than everything I’ve just said:

It was never me, it was just the sun shining through me. The parts of me the sun allowed to stay, while I was transparent, are not the parts of me that you see every day. If you want to follow something, follow the sun and its light. If you want to learn something, learn how to be transparent yourself.

Each person has one specific place in the world where we fit as if we were molded to that one place. If we can do our best to find that place, find that person and be that person, then sometimes we might find that fleeting transparency.

But you’ll find if you’re serious enough, that transparency is not the goal. The goal is compassion, the goal is caring about others and doing your best to help anyone and anything in need. For real, not just as a show. And transparency happens, sometimes, on the way to these other things. Sometimes for a little time, sometimes for a long time, but never forget — it’s the sun, not the person, that the light is coming from.

Maybe I’ve said too little, maybe I’ve said too much. But I know sometimes I go transparent, just for a split second. And I know sometimes people think that means something about me, and they start seeing me as more perfect than I am, expecting a perfection I can’t give them, putting me on pedestal. And I know from experience, it’s a long fall from any pedestal, and it hurts when you hit the ground. And it’s not good for anyone else around me, either. So don’t do it. No pedestals. I’m just a person. And the sun can shine through you as readily as it can shine through me.

Tl;dr: Don’t allow anyone to put you on a pedestal just because the sun shone through you once as if you were transparent. Don’t put other people on pedestals when you see the sun shining through them as if they are transparent. Remember that it is the sun through which they get all their light. And stay the hell away from anyone who generates their own light to mimic the sun and make you think they are transparent to it, they are bad news no matter what.